valentines day...

also happens to be my anniversary, and today i was trying to remember how it is that we have spent our anniversaries. do i feel like a horrible girlfriend for not remembering 3 out of 6? That goes without saying.

#1 l.a./hollywood #2 dinner with friends in woodland hills ? #3 dinner in pasadena? #4 funny bouquet of flowers #5 dinner at home because we were both totally overworked and I had class #6 houstons. OK. I feel a little bit better now. I try to remember everything that we do because I'm all giddy about Jesse and because I never wanted to be the girlfriend who didn't remember dates and special occasions. But i guess life has been happening and happening so well that all i know is that i shouldn't feel bad if i don't remember everything from the past. OK that didn't make too much sense but I feel better now.

anyway, work is getting better. oh and speaking of work, today while i was at work I got an email from Monica and she wants me to be her bridesmaid! sheesh. as much as i hate all things bridesmaid related things, I couldn't say no to my little "Leroy". i'm totally going to look up some cute dresses because God knows the last thing I need is a teal or pink dress with ruffles in my closet. This also means that I need to lose some weight! I don't want her to have a fat bridesmaid friend in her wedding. I won't allow that. a chubby one yes, but not fat.

ughhhhhh.

What a crappy day today was. work was good until my passive aggressive supervisor decided to finally voice what she thought i understood was coming from her always covert messages. why do people need lists' with information that isn't correct? why would she hand that out at a meeting? why would she give those lists out and say "ok here are your assignments, but some, you may not be able to contact because the info is wrong"? ass. Why!? why? did she keep me 1 hour after i was supposed to go only to not let me stay an extra 15 minutes to finish what i was doing? ugh. I really have to work on letting shit like that go but whatever. This PMS isn't helping me out either.

I should just strive to get fired. If I get fired I get paid unemployment and I can devote more time to selling shit on Ebay and building my mothers tamale empire.

Oh wow. I just got good news via text. Jennifer got a small part in a movie. It's a small part but it's a real movie! She said she'll hire me to carry her handbags for 30 bucks an hour from 10-4:15. It almost sounds like a dream job right now.

the light.

In the past few months i think i've gone through a bit of a transitional period. I know, it's kind of strange when you catch yourself in mid-transition. The growing pains almost left bruises.

I learned that there are more important things in life than holding grudges. I've come to full grips with that I am ultimately in control of my happiness. I've seen the light and realized that I don't need to do what everyone else is doing, nor is there a crucial deadline that I need to meet to reach my goals. I got accepted to CSUN, I'm en route to having a great trip to NY, I met my half-nephew (is that such a relationship? i dunno i guess I still refuse to see his mother as my half sister, but I promise I will work on that), Jesse and I are doing well, and work is getting slightly crappier but I am having a positive outlook and realized that I may as well stick around and get my tuition paid for. Luckily my supervisors are cool, however Administration is a whole 'nother show. Our CEO & CFO need to take a non-profit management course.

I'm really excited about going to CSUN. I think i'm just more excited about actually sitting in classes that I am actually interested in. Urban Planning is going to be good, I know it.