grindin'

so i finally decided to do something about my grinding teeth. i bought a night guard. It kinda looks like those things athletes wear to guard their teeth. I've been grinding my teeth over night for about 4 years now and it has been the cause of several pains. constant headaches, pulsating pain all over the temporal-mandibular area, ear ringing and now vertigo. i draw the line at vertigo. so i slept with it in my mouth last night and i woke up feeling awesome. i should have bought one of these things a loooong time ago. i look forward to many pain free mornings.

today after work i went to church. today is the day of the virgen de guadalupe, and while most people my age would say i'm lame for caring, i could give a fuck what they think. i am not ashamed to say that i have a very strong belief in her. i went to trader joes and bought her some flowers, parked at st.finbar and started a much needed conversation with her that brought me to tears. my spirituality is mine and not for anyone to judge. one of the things i enjoy most about it is that it's entirely mine. no one needs to understand it, and i don't have to explain it to anyone. devout catholic, I am definitely not, but i do fill out catholic on surveys when religion is asked about because that's the one I am most familiar with and that it what i grew up as. anyhow, it felt good to sit there and have a conversation with someone (something, i dunno) who doesn't roll their eyes, let's me say exactly what i want, and always listens. some might say i'm crazy "how do you know she's listening?" well, i know she listens because i am still here and i am able to wake up every day and see the brighter side. life has been tough on little ol' me many many times, as it is on everyone in different ways. i guess my faith in her is one of the things that makes getting through the shitty days a little easier. it's not for everyone, spirituality. i think it could be though. some people don't need it and that's cool with me but those who are spiritual shouldn't be judged. those who impose their beliefs on others and try to convert them can be though. my rules are keep it to yourself and be respectful of everyone, even jehova witnesses.
thank goodness it's almost friday night.